when we first got together in june last year, we were really happy. i'm sure you enjoyed the company as much as i did. (: yeah? but ever since that pulau ubin trip, our care towards each other has significantly changed. why?? i don't know if you've noticed it or is it just my imaginations but i know it's troubling me alot! well one thing i know is that i am no longer the "JOY" you thought you used to know and your impression of me has changed. the truth is, i never changed! i know that deep down i still love you a lot but i couldn't do anything when you already looked upon me as someone who is greatly against you. i know all these started because of my character. it is just me to tackle a problem and keep talking about it till it's completely solved. it is just me to be so straightforward. i thought after knowing me and being with me for awhile, you would understand i did not ever hurt you on purpose but rather with the intention to keep this frail relationship going? sometimes i feel so bad for being so straightforward and all but your reaction towards me only showed that we lack understanding between each other. i believe the reason is because we have not been communicating and we haven't been knowing about each other's lives so we can't understand what each other may be going through. sighs. we really think very differently and i thought opposite attracts. you choose to forget stuff(for example when we argue) but i choose to talk about it till everything's trashed out and solved. sigh sigh sigh. i really find it hard to love anymore. i feel so hurt, so shag and like no one ever wanted me... sorry i had to get this all out.
hoho, weishan, sweeleng, vanessa and i
okay these are just random photos.
i seriously love spongebob! but too bad this ain't constructed by me :(
okay that's all! <3