things haven't been going fine for me. am i suey or what. lost my wallet at orchard yesterday and hence got into quite a heated argument with my parents cause they seem to grab every opportunity to jump on me, no matter how hard i try. yeah, i'm always at fault. what else can i say to defend myself?
and yeah. was really emoemoemoemoemo for quite some time. over a friendship i think i've lost. sometimes i think i appear damn hard up or something. all i wanted to do is care? but yet, the efforts and concern have become seemingly depreciated. i mean. i always wondered, how some people can be totally nice and close to you now and the next, they appear like complete strangers. i really really don't like it and can't seem to understand it at all. it was like the friendship was just a lie. or yeah, it might just have been superficial. i've been trying my best to get things back to normal, but i just can't. guess these kinda things can't be forced. i don't wanna force it in fact. what's the point? maybe i'm just not exactly the kinda friend you need. i really wonder what i am to you, because i really treasured the friendship. are you aware of that?
i'm hurting. and feeling shortchanged. and used.
anyway. today was the first comm meeting! :D it was good. especially that "workshop thing" we had in the beginning. meaningful i would say. a good reminder of how Jesus washed the feet of His disciples. servant leadership. :)