tired. and totally drained. from i don't-think-i-exactly-know-what.
four days of rehearsal is truly shiong. and all the travelling here and there. and without warning, camp is starting just tmr. and i feel totally not prepared, of sorts. like the sudden feeling of wanting to just stay home and sleep in all day. guess i really dread having to report at 8am tmr, since i usually wake at 9-11 plus in the morning. what a bum i am you will say. but aren't holidays just like that. a time to break off that pretty horrible habit of waking up at 6 plus every morning to make sure you're not late for school=x
and have been thinking real much about many stuff recently. good and bad stuff. that's getting me totally frustrated. how i wish i had the power of reading minds. then i don't have to guess some people's thoughts and figure how they function. totally sucks. said i wanted to give it time, see how it will turn out and all. but think i shouldn't give myself too much hope as well? the greater the hopes, the greater the disappointment? i don't know. i don't exactly understand how close friends can become seemingly strangers in just say, a couple of weeks? and friends who can talk about almost everything under the sun can end up having conversations which can only sustain under a forced topic? i guess, these things always happen, don't they?
i want to cool it now. need to prepare my heart for camp!