i pray that all this will stop, please.
i started disliking posting unhappy posts since i don't know when, even when i felt so because i thought putting it online will not do me a single good, anyway. but today, here i am to make an exception, because i know that the related party wouldn't be here anytime.
today actually started out pretty good. went to school for Cedar Family Games Day for CIP, but ended up enjoying myself to the fullest playing netball and badminton, sweating it out the way i haven't for a very very long time, and i truly miss that feeling. that feeling of being totally committed to a game, and the feeling of fighting it out just to achieve the best, and the feeling of enjoying every moment of it even when your body seems to be failing you anytime soon. yes, i really miss it.
then it was SCHOOL DAY today at YF :D i wore my Cedar uniform and it felt great :) i only took one photo today, with the three other cedarians, but the photo is with elyssa! but, i really had fun, i mean it's been so long since i could enjoy myself like that. :) yeah man. had dinner at Gardens market, had ben n jerry's strawberry cheesecake flavour (this is definitely the highlight of the day)! after dinner, it was fun-ny :) haha, was talking to mayboo and kinyip and we were saying that demoted is the low class expression for "relegated", indecisive is the low class expression for "flippant" and all that. i shall work to being high-class, HAHAHHA. :D
but when i came home, and received a message i wish i didn't receive, my mood fluctuated instantly. i wouldn't blame the one who messaged me that. but, you know i just can't help it but tear. it really sucks when though we aren't talking now, i still really cared, worried about your position and all that, yet you really gave no single hesitation in saying things that hurt me. i mean, whatever that defines idiot, i think i fit the bill, perfectly. i honestly feel like one big idiot! i'm totally sorry, i know it was my wrong, my fault, my mistake and my bad. but can you stop doing this to me? because, i've absolutely no need of unnecessary comments that would send me to bed weeping and, i've had enough.
today actually started out pretty good. went to school for Cedar Family Games Day for CIP, but ended up enjoying myself to the fullest playing netball and badminton, sweating it out the way i haven't for a very very long time, and i truly miss that feeling. that feeling of being totally committed to a game, and the feeling of fighting it out just to achieve the best, and the feeling of enjoying every moment of it even when your body seems to be failing you anytime soon. yes, i really miss it.
then it was SCHOOL DAY today at YF :D i wore my Cedar uniform and it felt great :) i only took one photo today, with the three other cedarians, but the photo is with elyssa! but, i really had fun, i mean it's been so long since i could enjoy myself like that. :) yeah man. had dinner at Gardens market, had ben n jerry's strawberry cheesecake flavour (this is definitely the highlight of the day)! after dinner, it was fun-ny :) haha, was talking to mayboo and kinyip and we were saying that demoted is the low class expression for "relegated", indecisive is the low class expression for "flippant" and all that. i shall work to being high-class, HAHAHHA. :D
but when i came home, and received a message i wish i didn't receive, my mood fluctuated instantly. i wouldn't blame the one who messaged me that. but, you know i just can't help it but tear. it really sucks when though we aren't talking now, i still really cared, worried about your position and all that, yet you really gave no single hesitation in saying things that hurt me. i mean, whatever that defines idiot, i think i fit the bill, perfectly. i honestly feel like one big idiot! i'm totally sorry, i know it was my wrong, my fault, my mistake and my bad. but can you stop doing this to me? because, i've absolutely no need of unnecessary comments that would send me to bed weeping and, i've had enough.