MUMMY I MISS YOU <3>
Rng sent out the sms for mid week bible study. Question this week: "God, what is Your purpose for me?" So, I wanna really ask "God, what is Your purpose for me?" What is it. What is it, what is it. Still figuring.
The past one month or so has been an emotional roller coaster, long ride it is. Tiring, if only anyone could relate to it. My siblings? Daddy? God, I'm sure He's hearing, and He knows how much I'm hurting, how much it really sucks. All the guilt, that emptiness so hard to fill. Grief so hard to bear. Over the past one month, I felt like as if I was forced to put up a terrible faccade. I felt helpless at times, I couldn't wipe off that reality slapped right into my face. I wanna talk about it, but how to? (or who to?) It's hard to. Oh no, a broken train of thought. But I guess the crux, He took the fall, and thought of me, above all. Not to forget how great that gift was. C'mon Joy.
School's a dread these days. Thankfully enough, it's halfway through Term 2. Can't wait for the term to end, can't wait for a break, can't wait for an emotional rest. Can't wait for less dependence on this fallen loser world, I need You. Show me the way, please.
But I thank God for friends, who stood by me and were great encouragement and reminders to cling onto Him and His abundant strength. <3